Recently... I've been
forced to work hard on my studies... Only me alone... T_T... 1st.. It was extra class every weekday.. Then.. it became extra class even for weekends... Later.. even my recess/lunch break were replaced by extra class... And now... 3 extra classes each day for weekends...
I can't
complain much because I am still very very super weak in my studies... It's so
tiring... And d pressures are getting more & more (from the professors, seems lik they have high expectation from me.. =.= )... If it's somthg tat you wished and longed for... OK... It's fine... But it wasn't what i wanted or even expected at the 1st place... I still cant find great passion for french... Sometimes i have the urge to study well... Bt the fire only burns for a few days... Then i'm down again... haiz...
Many would ask... Why did i chose this course at d 1st place... If it wasn't what i want, then why did i go for it... The truth is.. I don't have any ambition anyway and i'm struggling what to choose after my high skul studies.. When i went for the interview... The percentage i would be choose was 0.5% only..!! I don't know a single word of french and on the other hand, all the others, which i'm refering to the whole malaysia... were at least A2 (level 2)... How can i be so
"lucky" to get this scolarship?? ( And why i'm not "that" lucky in winning a jackpot... =.= )... So... When my family ask me to come KL and try it for a week 1st.. Which i really thought it was really only for a week... I had a talk with the international language department director... She said somthg tat made me accepted the fate to continue this french thingy... She said :" You are here because god chose you to be here... When i ran through the list of candidates... I saw your name and called you... God has asked me to chose you.."
Well... that's what she said... Quite unreasonable right? But I fell for it.. So... Now that i'm here... I can only continue my studies and make sure i pass it... If i failed my exams... I'll have to pay back the government at least
RM250,000..!! The price of a house... Geez...
But anyways... It's still fun learnin a new language... Mayb someday... I'll love tis language and my job and i will thank everyone that pushed me into this path... Well~~ We just have to look at d bright side... right?
Aza aza fighting..!!